Toxic

I just spent the end of the evening watching my husband chop fruits and veggetables. Maybe it's because I saw it as a visualization of what has been on my mind for the last few days but now I'm going off to bed feeling inspired.

Andrew told me today he is doing a week long detox before starting an exercise routine, to which I responded with "JEALOUS!" Seriously i'm so proud of him, he went off to the store and came back with a wicked bounty that made my mouth really pouty that it wasn't all mine.  Is is odd though that seeing him surrounded with all that delicious goodness, and knowing he was going to be eating it tomorrow, was really sexy? Yeah maybe.

Well, with it being the new year I've just been contemplating how much better the last what?, 2 days have already felt. Everything feels fresh and crisp and sweet and like I can't wait to just be thankful and partake of whatever- cause it feels like this bag of groceries is just going to be better than what I've been bringing home recently. Yeah as in I've been realizing just how toxic I've let my life become and considering I'm pregnant, this turning point could not be coming at a better time. I have been feeling so much guilt about being SOOO stressed, allowing WAYYY too much negativity (people/thoughts) in my life, eating SOOO badly and just not feeling like this kid is even getting a fighting chance in there.

Today however, instead of feeling guilty I'm just feeling better. Feeling better that each day is a new beginning and that it's never too late to do the right things, for yourself and for other people. We went to our last birthing class tonight and a video we watched about parenting made me feel that at least once the baby gets here I can do a pretty good job...well at least what came naturally with Oliver is what "they" recommend.

In a nutshell I'm feeling more positive that the Lord has his eye out for me and that instead of feeling like I'm drowning waiting on him to reveal his will I'll just enjoy the swim till then thank you very much. So I have my husband and vegetables to thank for driving my realization home: I love them both.

OLIVER TODAY:
Decided to dump out my purse. " Mama's purse, mama's purse" He goes down the stairs with it, we hear a door close, we see him pop back up the stairs, he looks sweet and says "put it back".  A few minutes later when we need to leave I go down stairs to search for it and find it not only in our room but hanging on the handle to the closet.  This kid is positively breaking my heart.

BABY TODAY:
Kicking like a crazy person- I LOVE it:)